Been awhile

Well, its been awhile since I've been on here.  This summer was fun but crazy.  In June we went to see my sister-in-law and her family in Iowa.  Our first family vacation!  The boys did great!  Words can not express how good it felt to take all of them somewhere.  In July I braved all by myself and took the all the boys to Sauder's village.  They loved it!  I have to say I was pretty proud to do that all by myself.  Caleb started 6th grade (My baby is getting so big) played soccer this fall and is enjoying hunting!  Levi started kindergarten in a typical class room!  Yes, you heard it!  He is going to school and with out an IEP.  Which is good and bad.  But thankfully he has the best teacher.  She has implemented sensory input for him through out his day.  Now when he comes home, he has many melt downs.  But its getting better.  The best thing is that he is starting to read simple words, he is ahead of many other students and he is making friends.  All things the Dr. told us he would probably never do.  Boy would I like to take him back to all those Doctors and say "Look, there is hope and you don't tell a parent there is nothing you can do!" Gavin and I are enjoying our days together.  He's such a funny little boy!  Can't believe that he's 3 already, wish I could keep him this little awhile longer.
Matt is still working 10 hour days and so tired when he gets home.  We praise God for his job, just wish they would give them some brakes so he doesn't get so burnt out.  I'm doing well, just trying to manage everything and keep my family going.  I am very excited to say I'm going to be an Aunt 3 times in 2012!  Can't wait to hold all those babies!!!  I won't spoil them, haha.  Hopefully I will keep up with this better, now that I have a little more time.  Have a blessed day my friends!

Thinking of Spring

Matt and his Dad plowing the new ground

Here we are April 21, (My mom's birthday) and still just thinking of spring.  It has been so cold and yucky out that we haven't done much.  But oh that doesn't hold us totally back.  Here's what we've done.  We added 1/3 of an acre to our property.  So exciting!  We added 3 new garden beds, and hopefully a garden shed, orchard, and vineyard this summer.  Are we CRAZY?  Don't answer that!  Here's some pics of us starting our new ground.  The boys loved having Grandpa over with the tractor and the fact that we were finally making our garden.

The boys learning from Grandpa

Matt is so handy and smart for making tools that we need.  He designed a three pronged tool to go deep into the ground.  Our goal is to not have to till, because it disturbs to much of the ground.  Worms are to do the tilling.  Poor Clyde had to sit on the back though to get it to go as deep as Matt wanted.  It was pretty funny and the boys thought it was hilarious!  

  Well, right now we only have a few things planted.  Our lettuce is          up and growing nicely.  We also have spinach, radishes, and scallions in the ground.  We have part of our peas in, about 60 ft. of them.  Matt planted 200 onions white and yellow.  We have 200 red and 100 candy to plant yet.  Usually we have all of our peas, potatoes and onions in.  Just getting a late start this year.  It will happen, we just have to be patient.      Well, I'm having major problems with typing and positioning today.  Think I'm done.  post more soon.      

Matt with his new tool

I'm his Mom

I'm his Mom and it's me that can make the right choices for him. So often I have said he's getting better, (he is) then just to fall down with the reality we have so far to go. I have to say, I'm tired and we need help. I feel like I can't go on any more. Like I don't want to get out of bed, deal with one more issue, put a smile on my face that is fake. Where do you get help in the middle of know where? (I've already stopped typing 4 times because he needs something) We have to drive at least an hour to get help that insurance will pay for. Why should Matt's hard earned money go for this. You know I read somewhere that when a child has cancer people help the family but when your child has autism, no one is around. I think that goes for SPD also. I am thankful for my family they help when they can. It's days like this week when you feel all alone. But, I'm his Mom and I can do something about this. Here's what I wrote last night. 1st part is from a song that I changed the words to a little.


Who will love him for him? Not for what he has done or what he will become but his Mom. Me! I'm his Mom to cherish him, love him unconditionally, have patience for him, to care for him, to cheer him on, to hold him tight, to kiss him goodbye, tuck him in at night, cherish his words, adore his smile, appreciate his efforts, applause his work, pick him up, and love him just the way he is at just the moment we are in. I'm his Mom! No one else but me.


My prayer right now is that God will give me strength to be all I can be for him and his brothers. Also I'm still a wife, my husband needs me too. I'm empty and only God can fill me. I'm his Mom and its time to rise up and be all I can be!