Wednesday, June 30, 2010

Mommy will you squash me?

I think I hear this question everyday and on days like today, maybe 5.  Already this morning he has asked for this.  Every time he asks me to lay on him I think, I hope no one is watching.  How can so much pressure feel so good?  If something heavy is on me I feel like I'm going to suffocate.  But he loves it!  This morning he asked for his weighted blanket, (the little one he said) after putting that on he asked for the big one.  "On top of the little one" I asked.  "Ya, that will feel so good"  Ok, so I did.  He smiled than said "can you lay on top"?  Oh, my goodness!!!  He melted ( didn't really lay on him, I was afraid to hurt him).  These are the things that amaze me!  How can this make his brain work?  How can this pressure open up that jam in there?  Thankfully it does!  I wonder if he will out grow this?  He's going to be a tall boy.  I can only image my 6 foot boy asking me to squash him.  For goodness sakes, he will be able to squash me!  Thankfully my mother-in-law makes his weighted blankets for us.  Well, my little boy.  You just keep on asking to be squashed and Mommy will keep on squashing you.

Monday, June 28, 2010

My Children's Dad

My children's Dad is the greatest!  He just happens to be my husband of 13 years.  Have you ever thought that they have it easy?  They get to go to work and we get stuck at home with the kids.  We have to deal with the issues everyday, all day.  It is at times like this though when I stop and think about what he all does, and I am amazed.  How my husband can get up 5 days a week at 3:45 a.m. and drive about 40 min. to work and give his company his very best.  He doesn't just stand around, he uses his brain and muscles all day long.  The part that amazes me the most is, when he comes home.  After working about 10 hours, than driving home he opens the door with a smile and says "how was your day?"  The boys go running to him yelling Daddy, and demanding his immediate attention.  I'd say close to everyday he gives them a hug and talks with them about their day.  He has to deal with the issues as soon as he comes home.  No time to chill.    Levi needs Daddy touch and Daddy ears.  Matt is learning right along with me on what our boys need, especially Levi.  He doesn't get upset when I ask him to tackle with Levi or give him bear hugs.  When I quietly tell him it's been a BIG SENSORY DAY, and to give Levi some slack.  Ya, there are days that he needs time to just chill in front of the computer for a little while, but I can bet that he will be up and doing things around the house and giving our boys attention before too long.  I want to honor my husband for what he does.  He is a hard working man that doesn't ask for much.  He loves us completely, and with no strings attached.  Thank you Matt for being a great Dad to our boys and for being my constant support.  I could not do what I do everyday without you.  I love you so much!

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Dare I even say

Dare I even say that we are having a decent day.  It always scares me when I think this, because you never know what is coming.  But honestly it hasn't been to bad.  Gavin actually went down for his nap without his "B".  Well, he cried for 15 minutes, but hey that's better than yesterday.  Levi got a little scared of the storm, only cried for about 5 minutes with no big meltdown.  Caleb actually played with his brothers for about 1 hour!!  Now, do you see what I mean about Dare I even say?  These are the times that we should cherish and not walk around waiting for something to happen.  I know that, but when you walk in our shoes, that feeling is just there.  It is amazing how often we think something but that phrase "dare I even say" comes in and we stop.  Some day, I will beat that phrase and I will be able to say when its been a good day.  And better yet, know that tomorrow will be better too!

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

My Sensational Boy

I've been doing a lot of research again on SPD and I am really hoping to find a support group on line that can help me out. The more we walk through this journey the more I see that I need support for what I do every day. I would like to talk with other Moms that do what I do. Levi is a sensational kid, with so much going for him. He just needs help getting out of that box that he seems to live in. That box that holds him in and only lets him see light every once in awhile. I feel like we have a couple of flaps open, and trying to pull open the others. We will get there, but we have to understand what is going on and how to get the family through until then. I will keep searching to help my sensational boy. And when we do, the whole world will know that Levi is out of that box.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Trying it again!

WEll, quick post. I'm going to try this again and see if I can write more often. Already been bothered, write more later.