Wednesday, June 30, 2010
I think I hear this question everyday and on days like today, maybe 5. Already this morning he has asked for this. Every time he asks me to lay on him I think, I hope no one is watching. How can so much pressure feel so good? If something heavy is on me I feel like I'm going to suffocate. But he loves it! This morning he asked for his weighted blanket, (the little one he said) after putting that on he asked for the big one. "On top of the little one" I asked. "Ya, that will feel so good" Ok, so I did. He smiled than said "can you lay on top"? Oh, my goodness!!! He melted ( didn't really lay on him, I was afraid to hurt him). These are the things that amaze me! How can this make his brain work? How can this pressure open up that jam in there? Thankfully it does! I wonder if he will out grow this? He's going to be a tall boy. I can only image my 6 foot boy asking me to squash him. For goodness sakes, he will be able to squash me! Thankfully my mother-in-law makes his weighted blankets for us. Well, my little boy. You just keep on asking to be squashed and Mommy will keep on squashing you.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Dare I even say that we are having a decent day. It always scares me when I think this, because you never know what is coming. But honestly it hasn't been to bad. Gavin actually went down for his nap without his "B". Well, he cried for 15 minutes, but hey that's better than yesterday. Levi got a little scared of the storm, only cried for about 5 minutes with no big meltdown. Caleb actually played with his brothers for about 1 hour!! Now, do you see what I mean about Dare I even say? These are the times that we should cherish and not walk around waiting for something to happen. I know that, but when you walk in our shoes, that feeling is just there. It is amazing how often we think something but that phrase "dare I even say" comes in and we stop. Some day, I will beat that phrase and I will be able to say when its been a good day. And better yet, know that tomorrow will be better too!
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
I've been doing a lot of research again on SPD and I am really hoping to find a support group on line that can help me out. The more we walk through this journey the more I see that I need support for what I do every day. I would like to talk with other Moms that do what I do. Levi is a sensational kid, with so much going for him. He just needs help getting out of that box that he seems to live in. That box that holds him in and only lets him see light every once in awhile. I feel like we have a couple of flaps open, and trying to pull open the others. We will get there, but we have to understand what is going on and how to get the family through until then. I will keep searching to help my sensational boy. And when we do, the whole world will know that Levi is out of that box.